i find myself thinking about a lot of things lately. stuff like, what does it mean to actually love someone, and why do people get so upset over silly things. why dont i like to get drenched, and how do people actually maintain relationships despite the distance? why do some individuals like to annoy others, and why are some so hypocritical? why are people afraid to be nice, and why do i waste so much of my time thinking?
i dont like it when i think so much. my imagination somehow takes me so far off into my wildest dreams that when i come back, all i want to do is just hide back in my little bubble. the world is so different from the life i want to lead. some of the people i meet as i continue to age scare me. its scary to see people who laugh with you, but the moment you look away, suddenly throw a dagger straight into your back. im afraid.
what if i dont live up to expectations? to be a good daughter, to be a good friend.. to be a good peer, a good senior, or every a good girlfriend.. will people run away from me when they realise im not who i seem to be? that im not strong, or smart, or happy without a care in the world all the time? i get lazy, and cry too. im just like everyone else.
sometimes, i find myself such a disappointment. i couldnt even pass such a simple math paper, neither can i click with people easily, or understand people, or be less self-centered.. aahhh. i refuse to think anymore.

haha its such a long entry, that if you read it, im sure your eyes would hurt.
oh well.
take care loves.
hope you enjoy life.