do you know what s-t-r-e-s-s is? well, i certainly do. im like so freaking tensed up now to the extent that i feel like tearing out all my hair and crying and screaming and whatever things stressed up people do. oh my gosh, i hate hate hate this lah! i hate all my wrong decisions and the way i feel and whatever whatever whatever! i need to find a million jobs to keep me occupied so that i wont let my mind wander. darn im like becoming some seriously depressed woman who needs to be admitted into the the m.institution or smth.. aahhh!

okay. time to calm down and relax. and dont worry, im not really going crazy. just needed to release all these pent-up frustrations.. sigh. im just really tired of everything. need a big break.. now i understand how shabs feels.. oh well.

life hasnt been great, neither has it been awful. all i can say is, shabs has made my life a whole lot better. alrighty, time to get back to work.. take care loves.