gosh, its so late, but i feel so grr that if i dont explode in words, i'll definitely implode. like, why cant people just be considerate and just reply?! so annoyed now, cos all these years, people assume i wont get angry or upset or outraged or be petty should there be a tense situation. people assume im okay if they dont bother to care about responding to simple things like calls or msgs. but no! im not okay. but i dont intend to blow up in your face either. so i think for now, i shall stop thinking so much about whether i've got confirmed plans to meet you or whether i need a response from you or whether i need your help or whether you have to settle stuff with me or whatsoever. (btw this is general, doesnt apply to anyone in particular), but in any case, preet! i hate being on the receiving end. i feel so angsty. thank hearing things aint helping either. but gosh, thank God for zhen and nat to help me relax or i'll just smash everyone's face in. (or at least mentally.) gosh, i feel like im beginning to be so.. blergh. ahhh! annoyed. super. im thinking maybe for one day, i shall just turn off my phone and not care about whether you care to contact me or not. woot. or maybe i shall just go all stoned, or iced. like an ice queen. shites i have no idea what im talking about. i just need sleep now. only have 3 hours of sleep last night, and its not helping, you know, the fact that im still up at this ungodly hour ranting just to get it out of my system. if i could, i would run to the cleanest part of the beach in singapore and scream underwater (or something along those lines. preferably includes some kind of verbal explosion). drey says woah, cos my post is so long. bet she didnt expect me to be so blah and longwinded when it came to just exploding in words. i feel like im repeating myself. i want to get some eyeshut and dream about guava and how guava can be better than mango sometimes. yawn.