it doesnt make any sense, either does it justify anything whatsoever. i dont want to probe, and yet, i find this compulsive need to stick my nose into your business, because i'd rather not see you hurt. if it takes extreme measures to set things right for you, i would carry it out. but right now, i'd want you to try to make things right on your own. i really hope i dont discovered things that i do not want to, because i really wont know how to react. friendship. is that really all it is? or is there something more that i should know about? i hope to hear from you soon. you know it, i know it, for i've spoken to you behind closed doors. im not sure if you'll read this, but im sure someday, you will.