met up with nat, kat, nia, fi, amanda and alicia for lunch today..
laughed so hard til i almost cried.
i have no idea why i just kept on laughing and laughing and laughing.
maybe i was amused with everything that was going on?
or it could be because im deprived of laughing back in school..
i have no idea.
but i think if i allowed myself to laugh as much as i wanted, i'd probably have cried.
they asked if i was taking drugs.
they asked if i was troubled.
they asked if i was too stressed.
they asked if i was just acting cute.
i have no idea why.

*ponders*
well, the weather now is getting really scary.
lightning, thunder, wind.
to think it was so warm in the afternoon..


i hate this house.
doesnt feel like a home.
people screaming?
its just pissing me off big time.
i just want them all to shut up.
i feel very obliged to use vulgarities right now.
but i shall not.

im looking forward to having a life of my own.
to come to think about it, i've never ever felt homesick.
never.
well, i'll definitely pay my parents back.
but im not sure if i'll be able to be that filial.
sigh.
i hate me.


hmm..
will only get to see him on sunday.
i was just talking to a classmate of mine, and she said she hasnt met her boyfriend in two months already.
and the first thing that came to my head was, how do they maintain it?
to me, a relationship should be based on communication.
if you cant even talk to the person, how on earth are you guys gonna live together?
im quite puzzled by the human behaviour.


well, gotta eat dinner now.
hope i dont choke and die halfway through dinner.

love love.