i've decided not to be so dependent on people. whats the use. it only makes me feel worse. last night, someone told me that he called me out of pity. wth. i seriously dont understand. oh. and i got ignored. sigh. i really wonder who my real friends are. i realised that i know so many people, but my relationships with these people are merely on a superficial level.. only a few know what im really like. but then again, no one really knows whats going on inside my head. i think i think too much.. its been so long since i last went for mpm meeting. damn, i seriously dont think i'll wanna go for it. cos, its like, i feel so detached from them. it'd be so weird if i were to go. everyone'll be wondering why the hell im there cos im not even part of the grp.. sigh. i sometimes wonder how people can affect me so easily. its like, i feel like im getting myself embroiled emotionally in every situation people face. all the emotions. argh. i have no idea what im saying.
all i know is that im upset.

damn. im freaking tired of everything. i need a break.

shabs, i miss you.
hey nat kat siok nia fi and the rest..
lets meet up soon alright?

i need chocolate.