i have no idea whats going on. why is everything seem to be getting a bit awry? why does it all seem to be going down the drain? oh gosh, lately i've been putting in so much effort only to get slapped in the face with a large trough of bullshit. i dont know why i even bother. i mean, i cant take it anymore! i dont like subjecting myself to this bullcrap, and yet, i still take it in. i totally abhore going through this emotional dip. its honestly taking its toll on me, to the extent that the big D may even come to play.. and thats the last thing i need. sigh. i was told not to think so much. i was told not to care about all those ignorant people. i was told not to worry about it all. but the fact is, it all affects me directly. and its making me wanna burst out like niagara falls. sigh. oh wells. nothing much i can do about anything already. shall not think about it.