its times like these when i see things..
see things the way i had hoped were not true.
many a times i find myself trying to do something, trying to make a difference hopefully in the lives of the people around me. and as much as i dont seem to do so for many, the few that dont take me for granted make me feel loved. its assuring.
today a lot of emotions have surfaced, at least on my part, and as much as i am upset i feel this way, i am still glad i am aware of what is going on in my life.
the effort that goes into the hope of a sort of bonding, seemed to have been flushed down the drain. disappointed? yes i am. but i cant help it if others dont appreciate. and so, i've decided. do unto others what others do unto me. at least at this point of time. cos everything seemingly seems to stagnant. and i feel unloved. its an oddly annoying feeling actually. oh wells.
there are moments when people are also so insensitive. surely we have this innate ability to sense a person's loss and sadness right? oh wells, but who am i to say anything. some people say im insensitive. hmmm, but its just upsetting to know that people whom you've journeyed with for such a long time can actually fail to see the hurt i've experienced. i know i shouldnt ask for much, but all it takes is just an 'are you okay?', and i'd know you care. thats all it takes.
and when people are feeling down, i think providing input on your point of view should come much later, especially if the person is having a battle with his/her emotions. have to juggle whatever logic you say and this turmoil of emotions can be pretty tiring. therefore, people, if im feeling down, and i decide to confide in you, please just LISTEN. thats all it takes. i dont need you to provide me with defences on your part or give me a lecture. just LISTEN.
oh wells, i seriously think i've got loads on my mind at this point of time, and typing it out here wouldnt ease the load. but i just wanna say thank you, to the people that have stuck by me.
zhen. :)
okay, gotta head to bed now before my biological clock gets all screwed again.
good night loves.