the past few weeks have seriously made me super.. i dont know how to say. its like, the entire sequence of events have proved to be extremely upsetting and i know as much as i should stop thinking about it and move on with life, i cant. the impact it has had on me constantly makes me wonder, what on earth am i doing with my life? why do i subject myself to such mental torment and allow all this get to me? i mean, im cheerful bubbly aint-gonna-let-nothing-get-me-down drea. but.. everything * says or does totally makes me go nuts. and - is seriously annoying. the very look, sound or smell of - makes me wanna turn and run. ahhhh im so gonna slap myself. like seriously.