isnt it interesting how one word can make you think so much? i know i've always been sensitive, but sometimes it just gets a lil too.. i dont know. im just so affected when people say something. not that i cant take criticism, its just that it makes me think about my life, and the way im acting. but when people say something, surely it means it has crossed their mind? as random as people are, they still say what they think. and that in itself, i feel, is room for pondering.
a friend casually said i was irritating. haha and though it was meant as a joke, its really got me thinking about what kind of person i am to people. do i really annoy the shit out of people sometimes? am i seen as loud, with disregard for others' feelings? do people think i am of no substance other than my ability to smoke my way through situations using vocabulary? have i really changed, or am i still as before? should i bother so much about what people think?
i would say yes. i guess thats one of the main things that havent changed.. my concern for what other's say/think/feel. be it with regards to me or themselves. oh wells. life brings about so many opportunities for change, and yet... i dont know.
sigh. thinking makes my head fat.