woah. if i could jot down every thought i had in my head today, it would be millions. like totally ya. i mean, there is just so much that runs through my brain, leaving me with little time to actually brood over one particular event. but in any case, all i thought of today was just to do... work. gosh, i had never thought i would experience this kind of stress again. it feels good knowing that my brains just have to work and not falter or i'd just DIE. oh wells.
school today was alright i guess. other than the fact that we have loads due on thurs and yet, here i am taking a break to jot down my thoughts. woah, the more i read my entries, the more i realise how emo i can actually be. ahh but anyways, today was good. met up with ts, and it is nice to know that there are people i can actually do work with. the feeling is pretty assuring. but something else clouded my mind today. and that was, the ministry im in. i have come to terms with the fact that holding on to something im not interested in will only make me cease to enjoy doing His work. and staying on merely for the sake of others is definitely not helping me. its making me super pissed and upset and annoyed. i've been like super bitchy the last few weeks. and gosh, that is totally not good. its to the point that people have seen me at a stage whereby i dont care about the words i use, or the extent im using it. its not good at all man.
sigh, but i guess thats life. i cant always uphold that image. i cant always force myself to be prim and proper and put on a front when im actually feeling so angry and upset. sheesh, im getting angsty. and all these emotions make me wanna get a stick. not good. havent felt that way in a long time. its like, withdrawal. poops.

and my whole theory about guys being weird, i would say its true. but somehow, due to their oddity, they become such fascinating creatures who never fail to entertain me. its amazing how God has created us to complement each other.
the entertainer, and the entertained.
oh wells.