the past few weeks have been pretty interesting. late nights, morning lepak sessions, different group members, exciting assignments. but somehow, all these seem to dim in the light of the emotional rollar coaster i've been on. okay okay, this blog is like a place for me to wallow in my sorrows, so let me whine. hahaha. its like, people seem to be forgetting im here. people seem to be forgetting that i actually exist. a buddy didnt tell me about something i felt was important, and i had to hear it from someone else. and gosh, that someone just had to rub it in saying "what? you're his good friend and you dont know?" sigh. and when i asked him, he said it wasnt a big deal. well, to me it was. and it resulted in a two nights of being emo. and a good friend seems to be upset. maybe she thinks i favour a different company. but i dont, its just that sometimes, i need people who understand. people who'd listen and know what im talking about. and even if they didnt, it would be good if they could just listen and not judge. and its also super upsetting when i actually make an effort to communicate with people, only to not have any response despite direct questions. i just miss you enough to even ask you out, and yet, it seems as though it all goes to naught. to top it off, my sister forgot about me. shant go into details, but all i can say is that it made me so upset, to the point where i go all red just thinking about it. to the point where i could cause a waterfall. oh my goodness, i've been wallowing in so much negativity to the extent i dont know what to do about it. all i want to do is indulge in vices that keep me light and deluded. which is so totally not good. oh wells. at this very point in time, i dont see the need to forgive or try any more. i think i need time off.