i know i cant have everything my way. and sometimes, things happen to turn out better than i had ever expected. but there are also times, when everything seems to fall short of expectations, and i find myself disappointed and upset. the slightest things, like how presumably close friends cant even share with me what their personal message on msn is, reflect a lot on my bonds with people, and i cant help but wonder if those whom i feel close to, are actually still so far away. it so scary, i tell you. but in any case, im happy today. because i enjoyed being with those two monkeys, though they made me overuse my voice. haha, and im glad he shared, though i expected him to shun my questions and ignore my probing. but, im just sad that buddies dont speak. oh wells.