i think its scary when i say everything. i think. i should stop saying too much, and let people second guess what im feeling. cos, i think too much, and for me to tell you straight about how i feel could be a lil scary. haha, scary in a not-so-bad sense, but more of a gosh-didnt-expect-her-to-feel-and-think-so-much kind of way. haha, i dont quite know what im saying, but yeah.

had presentation today! (or more likely ytd, seeing that its wed alr.) it went fine. but the one thing that i was very pleased with was the fact that i had a voice! oh my gosh, my voice is coming back! and im oh-so-very-happy now! wheeee! hmmm. though i felt my stubborn streak come out for a while just now. haha, havent been absolutely stubborn in a long time, and thats a good thing i guess. though i think if i didnt control, i probably would've got myself into a bit of trouble, not to mention a possible friendship dilemma. eeks. okay okay, you probably wont understand what im talking about, and so, moving on.

i am absolutely, positively happy that ms ngui could join us today. though we had never really spoken much, it was good to see rach and terry happy to have her around. ahh yes, the beauty of friendships. the wonders of bonding. how beautiful it is to see it all blossomming, and growing into a rose of truth, that binds us all together. haha, im beginning to sound all flowery and happy and preppy. wheeee!

i really enjoy time spent with those two, though there are moments when i feel like im not quite there. hmmm, in any case, they make a splendid party, and im just exhilarated to have them in my life. i looove you!

and oh boy, am i looking forward to sat with the woots. wonder what they have in store.. but in any case, i just sort of miss them. its weird, like how we see each other quite often in school, and yet, i fail to spend time when them. i somehow always find myself in amk... haha, but in any case, sat is for them. and hoefully, we can build stronger bonds that'll last more than the next two more years that we have together. ahh yes. friendship is in the air, ladies and gentlemen.

hokay. now. i think. i need to think. about tomorrow. if she is coming, i am so not gonna show my face. grr. dont quite like being around her, cos im so scared i'd be nice just cos i have to, but in my heart, im just wishing she'd go far away. im so afraid to be near her, cos i have no idea what thoughts she has in her head about me, and whether she's genuine or not. im quite tired of having to keep my guard up against anyone, and i dont intend to do so, lest i be all hypocritical and such. shucks. andrea needs to find love in her heart for her, but for now.. NO. haha.

i want to see jiande tmr! its been so long since we last sort of went out. and the time at mel's place isnt counted. hmmm. hopefully everything goes well. and that terry's headache and flu flies out the window.

whoop! this is a super long entry! havent done one like this in years. guess i must be real happy and all. yay! three cheers for love and friends.

and now, i'll be off! gdnight!